This is getting crazy.
Vintage Opeth is going through my ears as I type this, in what has been ages since I last posted. Kind of reflects my mood now.
The year is running by quick as usual, although this year feels far slower than last year. Probably because I spent most of the year slacking away and having enjoyable times doing so. You know, time speeds up by a gazillion miles an hour when you are having fun.
Or does it?
It seems that, NS makes time go slower. It’s almost as if I’m in a capsule.
Even the weekends feel pretty long. Usually two days felt quick. Like a breeze. Poof. Gone.
Or is it just growing up?
I’m guessing, as we grow older, as we mature into the world we are in, we take notice more of the littlest things. Even time. Ever looked at clock every minute or so? You’d end up looking at the time 30-60times in just an hour. Time feels slow, doesn’t it?
And that’s the thing about time. We take notice, it goes slower.
We don’t, it just passes by.
Irritating little bugger.
Usually I would never want time to fly by, but god, almighty god, ORD couldn’t be further away.
So why is this getting all crazy?
It’s been four full months since the year began. I’m dismayed, disappointed at my progress in life this year.
Four slow months, might I add (again).
I should have been able to do more meaningful things with my life.
Let’s see what have I done:
January - Hung out with a few friends, had a great New Year’s Day, Chingay training and prep for the actual show. By far my most memorable month. Life was all Project Team, friends and AWESOME B9. That was beautiful.
Feb - The beginning was amazing. Blew me away. The fun, the atmosphere, the energy. I was on a roll for weeks after Chingay ended in the first week or so of that month. The great memories still linger :)
I will never get to perform on that stage again, but memories were remembered, friendship forged, comrades rocked. All we have left are imprints on our minds and paper! It was great. :)
March - Good month, except the end. Did a couple of projects with Project Team, experienced hell and heaven working, made more great friends throughout HQ coy. Then came the end.
5 months of being with HQ and Project Team. The guys I worked with daily. Same office. Same four walls. Same computers. Different fun, different experiences everyday. The freedom, the life.
I got posted out.
April - present Attended a Clubsnap + ASIA (Asia Street in Action) Photowalk session. Enjoyed my hearts out at that one. Learnt a great deal -took quite a great deal of pictures too! The theme was street photography, and although I love people photography and had been wanting to try street for some time, that was my virgin foray into actually shooting street. Had my fair share of adventures!
Sadly that was quite the highlight of April. My new coy was way more regimented that HQ, which meant a dampener on Gakkai activities. Couldn’t come out for NP25, and ended up being busy with other little nitty-gritty, till I couldn’t attend anything either.
May came, and the story’s the same. Nothing much. Not at all.
In this post of self-reflection, I have come to the painfully obvious conclusion: It’s time to do something.
I was reading (and still reading) this good book by Stephen Covey, titled ‘The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People’. The first habit taught was - wait for it - Be Proactive.
I realised that, most ineffective and ineffeciency in individuals is due to a sore lack of proactiveness.
You need to kick a ball for it to move. Start a car’s ignition to get the engine started.
We all need to kick ourselves into doing the things, making the changes we promised ourselves countless times we’d do.
And so, this is it.
Transformation time.
The next 7 months is gonna be hell but heaven’s waiting to be knocked on at the end.
I shall, begin.
Oh wait, its already Tuesday! My body clock has decided to fool me once again. It’s the ultimate time-machine, I tell you. Nothing else makes a Sunday feel like a Friday and nothing else will make me feel like sleeping in on a work day.
Okay. I take a look at today’s date, holy mother of god, it’s already almost August?! Is it just me or did Father Time (or Sister Time for the feminist in all of us) just hop on an airplane and fly?
It sure feels like so.
It used to be that time would slow down to an agonizingly slow pace when you were doing something you didn’t like. And it would speed up like a vortex when fun was on the agenda.
But right now, it just flies.
And it’s made me realise how short life is. It’s too short to live with regrets, hatred, evil, jealousy and all the negative things we associate ourselves with.
There are no regrets in life.
There are only mistakes and experiences.
If its good, its good. If its bad, learn from it and don’t fall to error again.
That’s why I can confidently say, I have made many mistakes, but no regrets.
Because they make me who I am today. And I’m strong enough to admit, I’ve done wrong, I’ve screwed up, and I can and will change. For the greater good.
Would I have wanted my life to be different than it is now if I could?
Sure. Duh. Of course. Absolutely.
Not.
It’s because of the choices we make, that shape us as who we are.
By changing history, you are not you.
By wanting to go back and improve the past, you are missing out on what’s more critical.
Your future.
So let’s look ahead and stop thinking about what cannot be undone.
The future is ours to mold. Even Time knows this.
Oh and by the way, someone give Time a speeding ticket. Too fast too furious already. :D
In many places, many organisations, many worlds, to be a leader of men (and women, im not sexist LOL) is something to be desired for, to be envied, and certainly to be envisioned of becoming.
So why do we see people being so afraid to lead in say, school, projects, games etc?
Is it because, being a leader here means doing all the shit that no one else wants to do?
Maybe.
Think about it.
You become a class rep. No one appreciates you. If anything goes wrong, it’s your fault. YOUR fault, not the people you take care of.
You lead a project, your group members make use of you, they see you as the almighty power who would solve all their problems and do what they never wanted to do in the first place.
Being chosen as a leader is more of a finger-pointing game these days.
But, think about it.
The world thrives on people like you.
The ones who lead, take care and make decisions.
Without you, the ones below you cannot survive.
You are in fact, more worthy and less dispensable than they are.
You learn, you tolerate, and you progress.
And the real world WELCOMES people like you with open, celebratory arms.
So don’t fret over being underappreciated, overworked, what not.
You are a gem.
A leader.
I’m rocking out to Bruno Mars, blogging away on blues night.
Having given in to this sudden urge to write after eons of not touching my blogs, I realised, I missed out on so much by not writing.
Anyway. Looked through tumblr. Lots of posts about the Harry Potter finale.
I wanna watch it so bad. Might even watch alone.
Don’t wanna cry in front of my friends. I know I will.
Thank you J.K. Rowling and the HP cast.
Yes. Simple as that.
Life’s been treating me nice. I guess.
If there’s anything that life gives, its the uncertain nature of it all.
Sure it can be scary, frustrating and even dangerous at times. But for every great reward, there is a greater risk at hand. And I see this unpredictable, wayward way that life throws challenges at us as attractive. A reward, a big one accompanied by risks.
Now, I made all of that sound scary and serious, didn’t I? Hahaha.
It isn’t, really. It isn’t.
We don’t like predictability. We don’t like it when some idiot friend of ours starts yelping out the plot points of a movie we haven’t watched like he’s at a storytelling contest. We hate when people come up to us and start chatting about the same old boring things.
And then you might be thinking, uh huh! What about knowing stuff like the weather? Lottery numbers?
Uh huh! Imagine one of us had that ability to foresee the future. Literal foresight. Now throw in natural human traits, like greed, hunger, and what do you get? An unbalance of the world around us due to one overzealous bugger bankrupting national lotteries, buying the right stocks and shorting the bearish ones!
Of course, I’m just nitpicking. If I had the gift of literal foresight I would help the world. No kidding. Such a person would be valuable. But also very dangerous with the wrong moral wiring.
Which brings me back to my earlier point. The greater the reward, the greater the risk. It’s always like that. No doubt about it.
It should be made a bloody rule in the rulebook of life, if anyone ever decides he doesn’t want to have any friends anymore and decides to write one.
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